Stumbling

I never felt like this before. But theres a first time for everything, right? I was always Miss Right. I knew how everything was supposed to be, how everything was suppose to develop. Well, lately i've been losing light, everything's becoming a blur. I agree with things i used to be against of and i'm now against things i used to agree with. I often ask myself why? Why me? I often blame myself for things that i cannot control, I often decide to be the bad man in the situation. I get annoyed often, i smile a lot, i laugh really loud, i blame everybody around me in my mind but in the end i end up blaming myself for not being the best version of myself. I find myself in situations where i am the one who's wrong, where the world seems to be right. I am stumbling. The world seems right and i'm the one who's wrong. But what if i'm right and the world is wrong? My words and my actions speak different languages. It doesn't matter what the question is if i cannot accept the answer. It doesn't matter where my mind is going if my body is going in the wrong direction, theres no connection here... And i know it. This is a foreign path... and i'm stumbling.